Wednesday, November 21, 2012
Soup and Substance
The leaves are nearly all blown from my next-neighbour-but-one's giant ash tree. How did that happen? I looked up from my notebook and there they were, the bare branches. Last time I looked they were full of green and red. A couple of writing buddies came over. Candles were lit, coffee and fruit tea made, buckwheat crackers (yes) on the table. But recent events and yesterday's activities (workshopping and choir practice) have sucked the marrow from my bones. No inner substance, no writing, not even dishwater writing - the kind you pull the plug on when it's done. I left buddies to their notebooks and mugs of fruit tea and went upstairs to the living room and looked at the sky, which was grey and unforgiving, but still, looking at the sky, and tree tops is something I need to do to replenish substance. Rooftops are also good. I have made more soup, sweet potato and lentil this time, some of which will soon be going to mater and co where it will either be eaten or left in the fridge until it has gone past its eat-by and thrown away. You will be wondering how it is that I had the wherewithal to make soup, in the light of what I have said about substance. But soup is like that - you can make it, literally, with almost nothing, a few bones, an old carrot, a handful of beans - and you can make it when you feel innerly without substance. The mater knows this, or used to. Her own grandmother made soup, she said, by singing into a pot. Sometimes I don't even sing. But the pot fills anyway.