I need to push a few things to the back of my mind and out. Enid Blyton apparently dealt with worrisome or distressing things in this manner and while she may not be everyone's idea of a good role model, and obviously she never had M.E., you have to hand it to her - she got things done. I wonder if she had problems with her teeth and a fear of dentists. No, people like her don't have such things, they just have the odd filling for which they probably don't even need an anaesthetic. Or they have 'em all whipped out at once with a general anaesthetic, get themselves a pair of false chompers and that's that - bish bash bosh.
I have had issues with teeth and dentists ever since I was five years old and piddled all over the dentist's floor, which didn't go down well with the nursing assistant who had to mop it up. I was scared as hell and nothing thereafter showed me a good reason for being anything else. One day I must write about my experience of laughing gas (a real misnomer) and standing in line with other fainting seven-year-olds to have a tooth pulled. I thought that if I never had to face another dentist I wouldn't mind what happened to me, I tried to make a deal with god: throw whatever you like at me but let this cup pass. He was having none of it. I rinsed, spat blood, and had things thrown at me anyway. It's been a recurring nightmare for, basically, most of my life.
My very expensive private dentist has sent me a beautifully-worded letter outlining his proposals for further treatment. He says he looks forward to seeing me again. The work he proposes would cost not just thousands of pounds but many thousands - more thousands than anyone would ever think possible. Well there are no more thousands because we've spent them. And I'm not even going to think about the after-effects of all the anaesthetics - bad, bad news for PWME (at least Martin Amis didn't have that to deal with, and anyway he was loaded). It's out of the question.
I know at least one fellow blogger for whom all this will deeply resonate.
I'm just going to do what Enid would do and not think about any of it.