Friday, January 14, 2011

Well I may as well come right out and say it: I am having a bad spell. After close to a quarter of a century of this disease it isn't exactly news. People who have M.E./CFIDS have bad spells, and I'm not speaking of the severely afflicted who rarely, if ever, have anything else. It is not something one particularly shares with others any more because that is one of the things about a chronic condition: after a few years there is nothing more you or anyone can say about it. But still - here I am saying it.

The relapsing seems to have become a January thing whereas my worst months used to be in the summer. Actually, I no longer know what my worst/best months are. I think I am less able to override these days. There are several poetry-related projects I would like to turn my attention to, places where I am scheduled to be in the next few days - but I need to be better than this.
Fortunately I have a packet of magickal incense wands - a Christmas present - and I am hoping that these, plus incantations of the uplifting and melodious kind in a ritual of my own devising, will do the trick. But on the other hand, I don't think I'm in a fit state to conduct this yet.

Pass the co-proxamol.

8 comments:

Fire Bird said...

Ah Signs. Hard road. Roll on spring which must help every affliction at least a little. Let us know how you go on with the incense wands won't you?

Cusp said...

Oh pee-po-belly-bum-drawers !

I think for some peculiar reason this January is harder than former January/ies. Seems to be in the air that many are struggling: its SO dark and dank and drear :O( and its so hard to raise the head above the parapet when the pressure of that dull low sky seems to be forever pressing down.

My sympathies and empathies...for I feel similar though I am maintaining a brave face/mask.

Roll on some sunshine and Spring blooms I say.

Be gentle with yourself x

Reading the Signs said...

F B , I will if I can discover what I'm supposed to be doing with them. They are for "smudging" ceremonies. I think I'll just light one and breathe a bit of verse into the smoke.

Cuspie, pee-po and all the other things you said - yes. Can you tell me where one can buy that facemask please?

trousers said...

Wishing you strength, Signs.

Cusp said...

As a 'veteran' (as some of the newly diag. are now calling the likes of us !! ) you should know that such masks are not available to purchase. They gradually appear in a jar by the door..a la Eleanor Rigby

Nicky Schmidt (Absolute Vanilla) said...

Oh Signs, so sorry to hear you're having such a rough gime. Sending you big hugs and I hope that as winter passes so you will feel very much better.

Reading the Signs said...

Thanks,Hosenkavalier.

Cusp, I never did understand about the jar by the door ...

Vanilla - hello! Good to see your face :)

Zhoen said...

Co-proxamol isn't available over here. Could hand you some lortab, with a Rx.